2013

31.12.13

Assalamualaikum.

2014 | via Tumblr
takyah cari pun gambar ni, dah terpampang depan sekali kat weheartit.com

Fuhhhhhhhhh, it's almost 2014. Berdebar tak? Apa kejadahnya nak berdebar -____- Aku tak rasa apa-apa, tapi rasa jugaklah sikit. Dah tua aku ni. Uhuks. Lepas tu, orang lain pi sekolah esok, aku tak pergi dah. Kengkawan 0913 pun duk rilek saja di rumah, or pergi kerja. Aku, of course lah, menganggur -..- Semalam baru je lepas praktikal 3 jam untuk lesen memandu kereta. Asek drift je aku ni, tak reti nak brek, kata cikgu aku. Huahuahua. Pastu bila brek, brek agak mengejut, cikgu tengah cakap tepon masa tu. Kesian cikgu. Hahaha.

Sepanjang 2013 ni, banyak jugaklah yang aku belajar. Of course la, setiap tahun banyak benda yang kita belajar. Belajar dalam kelas tu yang pasti, sebab 2013 aku masih bersekolah. Tapi bukan tu je, yang aku belajar erti hidup ececewahh ayattt! Family, friendship, school, usrah, leadership, struggle, studies, ups and downs, betrayal dan macam-macam lagi. Benda-benda ni semua akan jadi berharga untuk aku, pengalaman untuk aku jadi matang. InsyaAllah. Moga-moga dapat bantu aku nanti, dengan izin Allah.

Dan 2013 ni, penutup bagi aku sebagai seorang pelajar sekolah, lepas ni dah tak sekolah dah. Masuk IPT lah pulak (oh my I sound so old xD) Five years in SMKA Sheikh Abdul Malek, 2013 is the final year. SPM pun aku dah. Sekejap gila masa berlalu. Rasa macam semalam *oh typical ayatnya!* baru masuk kelas 1 Jauhari Sekolah Kebangsaan Kepong dan nanges-nanges tak bagi Kakak balik. Ahahaha ingat lagi tuh. Mestilah. Ingat lagi crush dari darjah 1 sampai darjah 6 wakakakakakaka kbai xD

Form 5 ni aku semakin rapat dengan Kakti, aku tak tahu ah kenapa mungkin sebab...ahahahahahah gelak la gelak -_- Entah ah, rasa maca terlebih rapat je, walhal selama lima tahun kat SHAMS tu tak pernah pulak kiteorang sekelas. Tapi tahun ni, kalau stres, nak nanges, apa-apa je, mesti dia datang kat aku. Aku ni dahlah jenis keras bendul sikit, tak reti nak pujuk, tapi takpe, pinjamkan bahu je pun dah cukup enn? XD Aku tak biasa nangis kat Kakti sebab dia pun tak pandai pujuk xD Aku jarang nangis 2013 ni, sebab aku tough dah sekarang *muka tough gila. jpg* xD Kalau aku nangis pun, aku gi kat 'Ainul dulu, sebab dia pandai pujuk owang :3 (Kakti jangan sentap pls? XD)

2013 ni jugak aku sedar, manusia boleh jadi sombong dan different bila dia tengah sibuk kejarkan sesuatu yang betul-betul dia nak. Contohnya, belajar gila-gila hardcore sebab dah nak SPM, sampai kawan pun layan macam tak nak layan je. Asyik nak marah-marah, sebab tensen. Padahal sebelum ni mesra dan friendly je. Huhuhu. Mungkin aku kot suka main-main sangat. Takpe ah, aku tak kesah pun. Aherrherr padahal kesah jugak sebenarnya tapi malas nak panjang-panjangkan, lebih baik diam dan buat taktau jer. Nanti okaylah balik. Hihihi.

Lagi...apa lagi ek? Oh, aku sedar jugak, aku ni sama je dari dulu. Tak berubah pun. Oh okay mungkin dulu aku TERLEBIH GEDIK sikit. Gedik yang macamana tu? Aku gedik dengan diri sendiri. Kalau korang tengok diari aku yang dari sekolah rendah sampai form 4, boleh dikatakan aku rasa nak bakar lah diari-diari tu semua. Even kalau terjumpa diari sekolah rendah tu, aku cepat-cepat je letak kat tempat yang aku dan orang lain tak nampak. Aku sendiri pun malu nak bukak, let alone someone else yang nak pegang. No way. Don't touch my past. XD Alhamdulillah sekarang aku lebih rasional dan...hah, biasa-biasa je. Tak gedik. K.

Mujurlah aku ni gedik dengan diri sendiri je, tak gedik di khalayak ramai. Kalau tak, mesti aku menyesal tak sudah -____- Tapi kalau korang tengok entries aku yang Form 1 dan Form 2, mesti korang rasa nak tampar aku sekarang. Aku mintak mahap bagi pihak diri aku yang dulu. Aku nak nyanyi sikit eh, supaya korang tak terasa nak tampar aku, "Aku yang duluuuu bukanlah yang sekaranggg..." k aku taktahu lagu tu lagu apa, tapi Ummi aku selalu nyanyi -_- Dulu, alah, tak matang lagi. Bebudak hingusan lagi. Biasalah. Baru masuk sekolah agama, bajet gila aku dulu. Bajet alim. Zzzzzzzzt enough, Fifiey xD

Kalau korang nak tahu, aku ni, in real life, takdelah pandai sangat bercakap. Kalau diajak berdebat, confirm aku ni tak menang. First, aku kurang ilmu. Adalah jugak, tapi even yang aku tahu pun, aku tak pandai berdebat. Kedua, aku memang tak suka berdebat, lawan kata-kata ni. Bising. Hohohoooo. Aku prefer diam je, sebab...entah ah. Memang jenis aku macam ni kot. And kalau ada apa-apa perkara yang aku tak setuju, aku diamkan jer. Biasa aku diam. Kalau aku bersuara pun dekat besties aku. Tu jer. One more thing, kalau orang kata apa-apa kat aku, aku pun diam jugak. Tapi, kalau ada orang sakitkan hati aku masa aku tengah moody, haaa.... Orang tu takde apa-apa pun, aku tak bertindak balas. Kawan-kawan baik aku la jadi mangsa, habis aku meluah perasaan kat diorang. Biasanya macam ni jer, kat chat;
Aku: tsdysuifhdsgarwjpgoheriafpioaihoersijfd[erpwihjdfgp
Bff 1: Why Fieyyy
Bff 2: Fiey u ok?
Aku: shsofidshoupoia[fudhofjkdshrwupogtk'dfs;lhghdfklgdfsg'losfd
Bff 1: ...
Aku: dshogsdigugpojhgsiiorw[euewrtoi[erwghwthgio
Kalau kat sekolah pulak, macam ni;
Aku: *masam mencuka tak layan orang*
Bff 1: Fiey awok ok dok ni?
Aku: Hmmm
Bff 2: Bakpe ni?
Aku: Adop mende.
Bff 3: Kalau ade masaloh, cite ah..
Aku: Adop mende, dakyoh care ah.
Sometimes
Bff 1: *cakap dengan aku*
Aku: *ignore*
Bff 1: k. *blah*
-_-

Haih, banyak kenangan 2013 ni. Tak terkata. Manis ada, pahit ada. Masam ada, masin ada. Crush aku? Wahahahaha. Nasib baiklah sekadar crush, setakat ni tak jatuh cinta lagi puiiiiiiiiiii xD Alhamdulillah, aku masih single dari dulu sampai sekarang. Syukur sangat. Aku dan kawan-kawan baik semua. Ya, kami memang baik dan sengaja tunjuk baik kami single dari duluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! Weeeeeeeeeeeee~ xD Tapi gataiiinya tu adalah sikit. Ehek. But kalau korang tanya kengkawan aku, siapa paling gatai, mesti diorang jawab aku. Huh. Whatever -_- xDDD Aku tak pernah ngorat, OK! K tu jer. Kiteorang define 'gatal' tu lain. Peace.

Studies? Hehe. Aku rasa result aku bertambah okay. Meningkat dari mid-year ke trial. Alhamdulillah. Aku harap SPM jugak dapat 100% A+. InsyaAllah dengan izin Allah juga semua tu :) Kadang-kadang aku down jugak dengan result aku, tapi aku bangkit jugak, sebab semua orang keliling aku support aku. Biasa aku mengadu menangis dengan kawan-kawan, dengan family aku tak berani, sebab aku bukan jenis open. So dioranglah yang akan nasihat aku itu ini. Kekadang tu sampai gaduh pun ada (Hai Alyaa! XD) Dan tahun 2013 ni mengajar aku untuk belajar, menuntut ilmu bersungguh-sungguh, jangan main-main! Sebab untuk dapatkan sesuatu, kita tak boleh sambil lewa jer. Dan JANGAN. SKIP. KELAS. Masuk universiti nanti, insyaAllah, aku tak nak jadi apa-apa dah, tak nak pegang jawatan dah, aku nak study sampai aku dapat jadi doktor yang berjaya. Dan kalau boleh, kalau rezeki Allah bagi, aku nak lanjutkan pelajaran selama mungkin di Ireland. My biggest wish. Doakan ek, korang.

Auni dapat masuk Darul Quran. Hafizah lah seorang kawan aku tuh. Alya terpaksa ke PLKN. Huuu. Aku sedih gila diorang nak tinggal aku dah. And jealous, Auni dah dapat sambung belajar. Even more jealous tengok budak MRSM yang dapat lanjutkan pelajaran awal ke UK states, huuuuu gila engko tak jeles. Aku duk rumah ni tak tahu nak buat apa. Nak study ok, nak study. Aku nak tebus balik kesilapan aku ponteng kelas dulu. T________T Aku nak studyyyyyyyyyyyy huuuuuuuuuuuuuu. I miss studying, a lot T_T Haih. Ni lah kan orang cakap, sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tiada guna. Allahu, takpe, pisang takkan berbuah dua kali, insyaAllah! >.<

Esok dah sekolah, Terengganu tak ambil cuti tahun baru. So, aku rasa kepelikan sebab aku takyah sibuk-sibuk tidur awal, gosok baju, gosok tudung pa semua, tengok jadual, susun buku teks. Esok takyah sibuk, ada perhimpunan ke tak, bawak blazer tak. Takyah SMS tanya ustazah Hanita, takyah mesej Nadhirah Ali, or terima bertubi-tubi mesej dari Nad. Dan takyah forward mesej Nad tu kat semua MT aku, hahaha. Rileks je aku ni. Kosong jer. Kosong~ Kosong~ ong ong~ Huhuhu. Those moments you left behind, you're gonna miss every bit of them. True, true. Haih, sesibuk mana pun aku dulu, aku tetap rindu kesibukan itu. Hmm :')

2014? Azam? Hmm. Entahlah. Menjadi lebih baik dari diri aku yang 2013. My 18th birthday is approaching, and...uh, that age kinda doesn't fit me. Ahahahaha. K. Salam cinta dari aku untuk semua pembaca blog ni. Sayang semua orang, thanks for staying tuned throughout this year, walaupun aku tak hapdet mana, sibuk study ler katakan. Huhuhu. Doakan aku, berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat. Dan impian aku untuk dapat 11A+ dan melanjutkan pelajaran ke Ireland seterusnya menjadi doktor, tercapai. Love you all. Terutama yang setia dengan blog ni, yang tak jemu baca, even aku selalu bajet cakap BI. Tapi post ni tak, OK. Hahahaha.

Tootles, assalamualaikum.

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim, 2014. 11:59pm, the last day of 2013. Love and respect.

Best class ever! (Part 1)

29.12.13

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.

Today I went to Besut for my second-cousin's wedding (whom I don't even know, all I know is her name is Ema -_-). The theme was pink, so the bride and groom wore matching pink outfits. Simple, no tabarruj whatsoever, because I think somehow they (the couple) came from sekolah agama, kot jer. But no, I'm not going to talk about them partly because I don't even know them that close (her dad is my Ummi's cousin, Uncle Sudin that I know of), and it has nothing to do with my entry's title -_- No one in my class has gotten married yet, thankyouverymuch *tetiba*



5 Muslim 2013, the best class ever. Eh eh eh most people (I mean, most of my batch mates) said (or still say haha) that our class is the most happening among the other classes *eyebrows knitted lols*. I mean, they all have their own classes to be proud of, instead they praised MY class. Oh I'm flattered, very. Hahahaha maybe I'm perasan or something here tapi well, all that I can say is, them saying that 5 Muslim is the merriest, betul betul betul, kan Ipin? Hihihi. I can't deny it, either, so I won't. Other classes have their own chakra points, but mine? Priceless. :)

5 Muslim 2013, our loving and caring class teacher; Ustazah Asmah.

1. THE RATIO

At first, during the earlier of our Form 5 days, 5 Muslim was going to have only 5 boys; Adib, Amir Khair, Fadlan, Amir Muqri and Ammar. And girls? -___- There were 27 girls, to be freaking freaking. And to make matters worse, all of the boys were already entrusted with a jawatan each, with Fadlan topping the list -.-" He was the President of Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar (MPP), and so many other titles (siyes banyak gila jawatan). And then Amir Khair was the secretary of MPP, with Adib being the Head Prefect of Pengawas Pusat Sumber. Amir Muqri was a discipline prefect and Ammar was the s/u for Asrama Prefects. Pffffffffft.

The ratio was like 5:27. K.

Our first class monitor was Izzati, I don't remember who was the assistant monitor. But then, four students from 5 Bukhari which were Nabil, Asyraf, Izuddin and Adam decided to switch classes with four of our 5 Muslim girls (and I, being one of the girls offered to get exchanged... I refused). After several days of hardship trying to settle the exchanging thing-y, finally those four lucky Bukharians added the number to the boys' ratio. Two girls from 5 Muslim went to 5 Bukhari, bye soulmate, Didi, and Bayyin.

The Silent One

2. KETUA DAN PENOLONG KELAS

Okay, after the boys from 5 Bukhari masuk 5 Muslim dah (oh did I mentioned that I refused to change classes despite the fact that my teachers and classmates were always looking at me whenever the boys start complaining. They were like, "Fifiey...tak nak tukar kelas lagi ke?" and me, "Aherr...nope," blushing madly zzzzzt), we finally had 9 boys *yay sound effect*. Despite that, all the boys were still berjawatan, except for Nabil, so he automatically became our class monitor, Izzati his assistant.

Oh, no. Here comes the madness part hahahaha. I don't know why la, but these two kept arguing and quarreling with each other throughout the year. It was fun seeing them giving their best shots at annoying the other, mostly Nabil la, suka sangat buat Izzati marah wkwkwkwk. Nak kata malas....aku rasa tak. Most of the time, Izzati tolerated Nabil. Sometimes, Izzati mengadu dekat ustazah and ustazah akan nasihat/bebel kat Nabil. He'd be like, "OK I WILL DO AS YOU SAY, USTAZAH" for a few days and be on good terms with Izzati for a day or two. Yeah, then, the volcano erupted again XD

They gaduh gaduh biasa je, perang mulut and all that, gaduh on who should go call the teachers, fetch this and that, tapi yang aku paling ingat (and it happened all the time), senarai kehadiran yang perlu dihantar ke pejabat PKHEM. I was the postman (or Wani), and they'd argue with me in the middle, tossing words and commands and jokes. Aku ingat sekali ayat Izzati, kalau hari dia puasa, and Nabil was asking him to do some works, she'd say this;
"Kau lah yang pergi, Nabil. Aku puasa ni. Letih ahh..."
Miraculously it did the trick. Nabil did the job himself. Aku dan Wani kalau dengar ayat tu dari mulut Izzati, mesti saling menjeling lepas tu gelak tak henti xD One day, after Izzati was done using those words with Nabil (and he was out of sight), aku pergi membebel kat Izzati.
"Zati, awak tak boleh macam ni. Awak kata awak puasa. Mana tahu kot kot dia pun puasa! *and some more blabbers that I don't remember*"
After that, dia insaf xDDD She didn't use that trick anymore, instead they kept on arguing -__- It was okay, anyway. They were our suns in the class. Kalau takde diorang, senyap je rasanya kelas aku tuh. They weren't that lazy, they just loved quarreling with each other, I guess. We're a family in that class (Izzati tu kakak tiri xD). This seldom happened, but if both Izzati and Nabil were in bad moods, someone else would do the job. Thank God the boys were also good-natured, they'd do Nabil's tasks voluntarily (or after Izzati had asked Nabil a dozen of times but he just kept ignoring it -_-). The girls were rajin also. Kiteorang kalau malas dengar Izzati and Nabil gaduh, terus je buat benda yang sepatutnya diorang buat tu -.-

3. KETUA KELAS & FRIENDS

Sepertimana yang diketahui, Nabil was our class monitor. That one cocky and funny guy in class. Seriously, he was like, the clown of the class. I mean, he made jokes ALL THE TIME -___- And everyone'd be laughing ridiculously including the teachers. He didn't even crack a smile pun, his face remained straight. His seat was in front of me (along with Asyraf and Ammar) and Wani. Selalu je gaduh/berdebat dengan Ammar, on all things (note that Asyraf is Nabil's opposite). I don't know how Asyraf stands those two xD

Friend Indeed | via Facebook

There was this time, when Nabil wanted to give money to our treasurer, Yein (she's a she xD). At the time, I was keenly focused on what Wani was teaching me (something 'bout Mathematics bab yang bumi sebagai sfera tuh, I suck at that -.-), then out of sudden tetiba pakcik tu panggil Yein, "Timahhh!" dahlah dia tu duduk depan aku, tempat duduk Yein pulak betul-betul kalau Nabil pusing, across him and through me and Wani. At the time aku duk terpikir lah siapa pulak nama Fatimah, then it came out; Azrin Fatimah is Yein's real name.

Wani and I were trying really hard to focus, but he called for Yein again with "Fatimahhh!" and that was that. We broke off, laughing. I heard everyone behind us started to chuckle as well, some were even startled, Yein pun gelak jugak xD Uhhh that was the hardship Wani and I had to face all year, listening to his jokes (memang ah dengar, duk belakang je kot). We didn't want to be caught at eavesdropping, so we kept our laughs, and after a few minutes of Nabil and Ammar's making jokes, we'd be crying -_- Stresss! XD Though that, Asyraf remained the constant variable, being all quiet and I had never heard his voice whenever Ammar or Nabil talked to him.

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Asyraf's a bit like this, tapi takde ah terlalu macam ni xD

4. THE BOYS

Each different boys has their own attitudes. Izuddin....terkenal dengan bersinnya yang kuat lollll seriyes kuat gila mamat ni bersin, hampir luruh jantung semua orang -_- Then Adib is well-known for his massively loud laughter, and he loooooooooves to laugh, at almost everything. Bila Amir Khair emo emo sikit, Adib akan gelak tanpa perasaan belas pun kat Amir, but Adib selalu jadi penenang keadaan dalam kelas. And if Nabil and Izuddin think they'd never lose a debate, Adib would win all the arguments. Selalu macam tu. Eh wait, Amir Khair seorang lagi. Adib and Amir, no one wins a debate against them. {they were debaters by the way, so yeah -_-}

Ammar...well, he liked to show-off his Bahasa Arab marks pffft. Geram seyhh. Yeah yeah he's a total brainy in Arab, we all know that -.- (I'm not jealous okay, but yeah kinda xD) Everybody was like, memorizing the lines of essays for Arabic tests, but him? Oh God, he did those essays spontaneously in exams, and that, ladies and gentlemen, is the reason why he is ustazah's favourite (uuuuuuu cedeyh titew xD). Ammar sat in a row with Asyraf and Nabil. Izuddin, Adib and Amir Khair. The furthest row was Amir Muqri, Fadlan and Adam's.

All these three? They were similar to Asyraf, Adam being the most likely. At least Muqri bising lah jugak, and Fadlan responded to Nabil's teasing and all -_- Sebab Fadlan tu presiden MPP, so bebudak ni rasa best lah sikit buat kesalahan dalam kelas (???) Hahahahaha takdelah, somehow it rocked to have him in our class, he'd be the source of rujukan if anyone wanted to ask him about school rules (really? -_-) or religious talks, something liddat. And with him in the class, the boys would be all-disciplined and obedient lah aku rasa. Rasa peaceful je duduk kelas tu. Ennnnn?

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These boys, they were all so sporting. Serious weyhhh. I heard one of the girls said that day, "Kelas lain semua jeles dengan kelas kita, sebab bebudak lelaki senang je bagi kerjasama kat kita," trueeeee. Diorang bertolak-ansur, layan je kerenah bebudak perempuan yang kekadang cerewet ni (diorang pun cerewet gak so 1-1, k). Tapi memang best dengan diorang ni. Senang je nak setuju kalau apa-apa. They were all hardworking, even the teachers claimed so :3

I remember during our perkhemahan perdana, oh my... They were the best, mantoppp! They helped us set up this and that. And walaupun asyik gaduh/perang mulut (ni menurun lah ni, Izzati dan Nabil yang ajar -..-) the girls versus the boys, tapi diorang still tolong bebudak perempuan ni. Teringat masa budak-budak perempuan marahkan boys sebab menyusahkan kiteorang, suruh masak, group yang bertugas, bangun pukul 4 pagi potong sayur dalam keadaan gelap, tup tup, pagi tu diorang dah masak sendiriiiii -____- Lepas tu call, membebel, suruh datang ambik makanan diorang dah makan pun. And they decided to send the most innocent people of the group. Yang baik dan tak membebel dan tak melawan (read: bukan Izuddin, Nabil atau Amir Khair).

Then the girls isolated them hahahaha. After a few hours, kiteorang berbaik balik lollll

So, that's them! Though we fought a lot, we still managed to control our limits. Uhhh, Fadlan and Sabrina wouldn't let us bergurau senda tak hengat dunia punya -_- Soooooooo, we were cool, all the time. One thing for sure, 5 Muslim boys are all understanding and respectful. And I've never been prouder :D

Dah, takyah pikir apa orang lain kata!

24.12.13

Assalamualaikum.

Dont judge people if they're weird

Ahem, korang pernah tak mengalami situasi di mana korang nak buat something yang tak berdosa pun, cuma boleh dikategorikan sebagai 'rare' dalam kalangan orang kita (atau komuniti setempat), lepas tu ada lah suara-suara yang tak berapa best dan sumbang gemalai berbunyi, "Eh takyah ah buat macam tu. Malu kat orang tengok!"? Pernah tak? No, bukan Yus Jambu punya quote ni. I mean, like, a real person next to us saying that. It's either korang pernah, atau tak pernah. Kalau tak pernah tu, means, korang lah yang tukang cakap macam tu -_-

Contoh perbuatan yang 'malu kat orang' yang berdosa ialah telanjang depan orang ramai -______-

Meanwhile, contoh perbuatan yang 'malu kat orang' yang tak salah dan tak berdosa, ialah....pakai sneakers dengan jubah. Takde salah pun kan? Memang lah pelik, tapi tak berdosa pun, tutup je aurat segala bagai. Nak lagi best lagi, perbuatan pelik yang mainstream; pakai tudung labuh, jubah and all that, then taking a stroll or walk with a headphone on. Cool, right? Super duper cool, I like it, so much. (and that's why I'm weird) No one knows what we're listening to, and most importantly, we won't be hearing any unnecessary noises during the walk, such as guys' phewwit. If someone is mengumpat nearby pun kita takkan dengar.



Well, you know what? To those people who keep on saying, "Don't do that. It's embarassing,", screw you, you don't care at all. Lantak pi lah apa orang nak kata, mulut orang memang akan tetap potpetpotpet sampai bila-bila. You can't shut those mouths up. Orang nak kata, itu hak diorang nak kata, takyah ambik kisah. Sebab orang yang cakap macam tu, bukannya kisah sangat pasal kita. Yang dia kisah, bila kita berdampingan dengan dia dengan style kita yang agak pelik tu, dia sekali akan tersangkut malu. Kononla.

We do what we like, it's our own free will to do anything we want in life, as long as it doesn't go astray lah kan. Actually, what other people say doesn't really matter to us. What matters is that we are confident of ourselves. If we're gonna get out there and see the world with a banner saying "I'm weird", we can just do it. Most people are weird anyway. No one's normal, either we show it or not, tu je. Kalau semua orang normal, takde perangai pelik, allow me to say, our lives would be B-O-R-I-N-G. Being weird is not something to be ashamed of, it's something to be proud of. Asalnya 'weird' ini adalah dari kreatif. Kalau seseorang tu tak kreatif on something, takkan mungkin dipanggil pelik. It's just going to be a normal boring stuff.

:D

Maybe people say that because of ADAT kot. Yalah, orang Melayu kita ni kuat sangat adatnya. Takde pun dalam Islam, tetapi dari dulu lagi orang tak biasa buat, so kalau buat adalah satu kesalahan yang besar dan memalukan. Okey, aku ni tak pandai sangat bab adat Melayu ni, so malas ah nak cakap lelebih. Nanti kang kena bash pulak. Ehek. Kalau ada orang bacalah blog aku ni. Biasanya yang baca, muka sama je. Hahahaha hai korang, thanks lah sudi baca muahhhhxxx lebiuuuu so muchhhh! XD

Kadang tu, benda ni berlaku dalam perbincangan. Dah orang tanya cadangan, aku jawab jelah. Biasanya aku ni bagi cadangan fikir jauh ke depan sikit, even though agak pelik. Ehhhh takde, takde nak dengarnya cadangan aku ni haaa. Ikut cadangan jangka masa pendek diorang jugaklah. Aku on je, malas lah nak fight fight ni sebab semua orang dah setuju, soooo aku pun ikut jelah. Lepas tu in the end, strategi tak berapa nak berjaya sebab gagal tengah jalan. Selaluuuu je jadi macam tu. Then barulah terfikir strategi yang aku cadangkan awal-awal tadi (yang diorang tak dengar tu), tapi masa tu nasi dah jadi bubur. Krrohhhs.

Biasanya kalau dalam sesuatu group tu, berbincang sesama, kalau aku bagi cadangan, jawapan diorang adalah lebih kurang macam ni;
Hahahaha *gelak tak ikhlas*. Tak pernah dibuat orang, Fiey.
And then they proceeded to the next suggestion. Same old, same old. Aku dah cukup fed-up dengan keadaan seperti itu, so I stopped making suggestions if I were ever being asked. Usually I'd just shrug, and told them to continue whatever discussion they had. Zzzzzt. Only sometimes je aku tambah tambah to make things clearer for me lah. I know I shouldn't be passive like that, but well, I'm tired of wasting my time thinking for something that people won't even lend their ears to listen. Oh sampai macam tu sekali aku kan. Hahahaha. That's me. I get fed-up easily. Well, that only happens in discussions.

If I'm on my own, and someone bothers to tell me that what I'm doing is embarrassing, stay away from me, dude. Get a life. Lumrah lah manusia tak suka diarah-arah. So, whenever people tell me I'm doing something embarrassing, I...I...I ignore them -_- Firstly, their opinions don't matter. Secondly, they don't care (I'd said this earlier). Yang nak kisah sangat pasal apa 'orang lain' akan kata, buat apa? Masa kita naik jatuh bangun sedih duka gembira, diorang takde pun kat sebelah kita. Ini, kes pakai sneakers and jubah je pun, nak tegur segala. Diammah kau -_- Takde guna pun dengar cakap orang, dengar suara sumbang orang lain.

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Be yourself. Jangan ikut orang lain. Buat apa yang diri kita rasa selesa, rasa yakin. I know, I am, too, offended, by people saying "Eh nanti orang tengok malu la," tapi aku belajar buat tak kesah tentang apa orang kata. Apa orang fikir tentang aku. Manusia akan tetap berkata-kata. Selagi anak tekak berfungsi untuk mengeluarkan suara. Kalau tak, diam ah diorang. Eh. Because in the end, they don't matter. Apa yang penting, Allah tak marah, tak salah di sisi agama, dan kita rasa selesa. Tu je, yang penting, Allah tak marah, tak murka. Pada pandangan Allah, perkara pelik yang kita buat tu, tak salah.

Here. If people ever tell you that what you're doing is waaaaaaaaaaay out of ordinary (and you shouldn't do it, they say), you think again, whether it's bad enough that you're gonna end up being thrown with papers, cans, tomatoes and all that stuff, or it's just gonna be words attacking you. If it's just words, carry on with doing that bizarre stuff of yours. It won't hurt.

Be weird. Stay weird.

Now I'm feeling weird. Hahaha.

Sadly, I'm a 21st-century Child

23.12.13

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.

iPhone and a smoothie

Ever heard of this?
“I fear the day technology will surpass our human interaction. The world will have a generation of idiots.”
― Albert Einstein
So, here's my story. (I made this in April, for my school magazine of 2013)

The Talking Girl with Her Laughing Friend

The shopkeeper gave me my balance and I went outside the store. The cold wind blew in my face, making me shiver briefly. I hopped on to the lower ground and began walking. The pavement I stepped on was carved with various stunning patterns. I studied those patterns while grabbing for a Dessert pill in my jacket pocket. I threw it in my mouth and its nourishing flavor melted against my tongue instantly. Technologies these days were awesome.

We didn’t have to eat pieces of food in platters or munch everything using our teeth. The experts had somehow found a way to make food become simpler by creating pills containing all of the nutrients our body needed. The pills were specific. There were Breakfast pills, Lunch pills, Dinner pills, Dessert pills and a bunch more. The desirable one was of course the Dessert pills because they melted in our mouth with rich and juicy flavors, just like desserts (they even came in various shapes). The sportsmen were in favor of Energy pills, giving them all the strength and power they required.

My feet brought me all over the city, the quiet city of Hi-Tech. I was the only one walking in the streets, while the others were kept shut indoors. I could see their heads sticking to the computers, laptops and smart phones from outside because all the walls, windows and doors were transparent, made out of crystals and glasses. I knew they could see me walking down the streets but they barely glanced at me. I gazed at the horizon above me and a few cars were slithering along the skyscraper road. All transportations were above me since the authorities had made it clear for the vehicles to stay out of the ground below, the one I was stepping on. I didn’t think it was bizarre, the ground was packed with glass buildings and crystal houses and multi-patterned pavements. The only part covered with green was the French Park. I had a feeling it would not be long before the park turned into something glass, too.

I let my feet take me where they wanted to go, wandering across the city with freedom. Minutes passed and a couple mysteriously appeared out of thin air from a corner and both were busy with their gadgets. When we were passing each other, I managed a smile, but they didn’t even notice me. I made an effort to say something to them, “Hi,” and I was given cold stares from them. The stares quickly changed into frowns and I noticed the hesitation in their eyes. Nodding awkwardly to me, they hurried their steps away. I sighed and shook my head with disappointment. Had they lost their ability to speak? I didn’t think so. I knew their problem; the lack of communication skills, since all they did was punching their so-called smart phone screens and laptops.

Turning left, I went straight into the Supa Tekhnologia, where all kinds of electronic accommodation were accessible in this place. The building was the same, glass-made. The place was full of people with their passive but elegant uniforms, white and grey with different patterns. No one even bothered to look at me when I first stepped in, so I went straight to the counter to see my only one talking friend, Sarah. It was hard not to look around, anyway. No one used computers or laptops here. The computer system was clustered to the wall and we could control it with a slight touch. They are called the Walcomp. There were rows and levels of Walcomps, almost reaching a thousand units. Before, we had those touch-screen smart phones, we still had them now, but due to the increasing excellence in the minds of humans, they created the Walcomps. Some of the citizens had upgraded the system at their houses by installing the Walcomps, but the others were still testing it in this Supa Tekhnologia. It was a matter of time before the government would make them have at least a Walcomp in a house. I was tempted to use one of the Walcomp on my way to greet Sarah, but she was seeing in my way and her dimple showed up. I smiled back.

The watch-phone – one of the new technologies – which functioned as a cell phone, beeped once and a projection of Sarah’s face appeared. It was the reminder I set to meet Sarah. She reached for me and hugged me tightly. We talked about several ‘girl things’ – talks like this were very rare and uncommon among the people here – and chuckled at our jokes. I felt alive again, it was like a century ago since I last laughed, but here I was, with my best friend talking and giggling with me, it felt so human and not robotic.

I thought, everyone here in this world was nothing but robots, with their hearts’ contents were all poured into technologies and gadgets they themselves created. Technologies had robbed all of the pieces of humanity in each of them. They made us ignorant and indifferent of the world and its contents. The people rarely talked and to see them laughing at each others’ jokes were everything but reality. They had forgotten something, a very special thing, called ‘love’. There was no more love for families. They felt no passion in humans, they only worshipped their glory of technology. I did not despise technology, but the affects they had on humanity.

I woke up from my thoughts and glanced around and saw someone else, who was mysteriously staring at me and Sarah. I frowned upon meeting his eyes and something inside me melted a little bit. I didn’t know what it was, but something else vibrated in me when he walked straight to me – I mean us – with curiosity in his deep blue eyes. His dark hair was alien to me, I had never seen anyone with dark hair around here. When he stood half a meter in front of us, he hesitated. I sighed. I had thought he could be different than any other people here, but he was just the same – he didn’t know how to communicate with people, just like the couple I met earlier. The hope that was blooming inside me just now faded in an instant. I turned to talk to Sarah again.

“Why are you turning away? Why do you look so disappointed? Can I not be your friend?” his beautiful voice sounded hurt. I couldn’t answer since he continued, “I saw you outside the building, greeting a couple who then stared and nodded at you without a word. I watched as you stepped inside this building, your eyes wandering around the place, your mind somewhere else – I presume – and you were tempted to use one of the gadgets but you stopped yourself when you saw your friend here smiling at you. You went to her and talked and laughed. You finally realized I was staring and when I stood in front of you earlier, hesitating, you turned away, dismissing me because I hesitated. I know what you think of me, but no, I am not like the couple you met earlier. I’m just another talking person on this planet. And it feels good to finally see someone that is living again.”

Was he stalking me? Screw that.

For a boy who I thought was lacked in communication skill, he seemed like a really good talker – an honest one at that, too. I couldn’t find my voice, and when he suddenly smiled I realized that I had been blushing. I took a glance at Sarah – who was covering her mouth at the moment – and she looked back at me. She gestured her hand toward the boy and went away, the Walcomp screen suddenly became her best interest.
“Amelisa Staunton. You can call me Emily or Lisa, but I prefer Emily,” I said with a welcoming smile. People had always called me Emily. Lisa was just a name that no one even bothered to call me with.

He nodded and extended his hand, “My name is Ethan Crawford. Is your friends’ list name full? If it's not, I would like to add my name on it.” When he said that (with a smile), I managed to look at Sarah who was grinning ridiculously. “We think the same, Lisa,” my heart leaped at the use of the familiar but unfamiliar name at the same time, “I know you despise our time of technology, the same goes to me. But let us not think of the negative things that are happening, in fact, let’s find something positive to live with. Like me, I found you – the talking girl with her laughing friend – and you have found a friend of your own. We can beseech other possible happy things around – perhaps some other talking people who are not obsessed with technology. Technology may have taken humanity out of us – them,” at this he gestured around the building, “– but as long there is a tiny piece of humanity in us, we can still be alive even though others are not.”

Sarah joined in at the last moment. “You are right, Mr. Crawford,” she giggled before she continued, “I want to be alive, living a real life, not a fully computer-based life. Others’ souls are reaped out by technology, but I don’t care as long as my best friend – and now her boyfriend – are here. Maybe some other time, we’ll find a way to restore those souls back to their original places.”

I gritted through my teeth. “He. Is. Not. My. Boyfriend.”

Sarah laughed her shrieking laugh. “Not yet. But I have a feeling he will be, soon. Just you wait and see, Miss Staunton,” she said at last.

I was about to reply when Ethan’s chuckle sent a melody through my heart. “You see? This is the talking girl and her laughing friend I was referring to.”

He was right. I was the only girl here in the building – or in this entire country – talking, to her friend who was laughing incredulously all the time. Being too keen with technology, people had forgotten to speak and talk – like Ethan and I did. It’s okay, I thought. As long as there are some people who haven’t forgotten how to produce audible pressure variations with their vocal cords at their throats, it is okay. Other people might forget, but not me.
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I'm sorry I don't have the 'thing' to write Malay stories anymore (I did make some in the past) since I've stopped reading Malay books -_- I'm probably one of those 'robots' in my own story. I am socially awkward, I'm not at all good-natured friendly like my friends Sofiah, Syafiqah, 'Ainul and Kakti. They know how to 'berbasa-basi' with people, and me? Ohhhhh I suck at that, a lot. I may be better if compared to Alya hahahaha. But seriously, tho. Sometimes I just dunno how to react when people say anything. I just smiled and then the conversation went off. Zzzzt.

Let's hope I'll remain human. Lols.

Havoc Moments (whatever havoc means)

21.12.13

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.


The day before yesterday, I was craving to try the new KFC Cheesy Cheese Balls (ke apa nama dia) and it had been long since I ate my last KFC chicken u.u So I instantly texted my Bonda Syafiqah to take me out yesterday. Aku suruh jugaklah dia ajak Piah, sebab takkan dua orang je kan, tak syiok ah berdua xD I also asked Kakti and 'Ainul but they were unavailable to some obvious reasons (they preferred sleeping at home -_-). Kakti la, 'Ainul maybe takde orang nak hantar kot.

So at 10am, Syafiqah arrived with Sofiah (in pink! I was wearing pink, too, lol, so the three of us were all pinkish) and I prohibited them from entering my room (not because it was a mess, whatever) but to save time hahahahahaha. Then, we were off to KFC Pantai Batu Burok. Sadly there weren't any cheesy balls because it was before 12 noon, so they only served breakfast sets. Huh.

Whilst making up our minds on the menus
Aku: Order Variety Bucket jelah senang...
Piqah: Mmecok ke? -_-
Aku: Ho xD
Piah: Ok gok op.. Kalau dok habis, boleh buat balik.
Aku: Bagi ke adik-adik. *jeling Piqah xD* Um... Takyoh ah. Mini bucket je, sebab ada doh cheesy balls tu.
Piah: Okayyy
Aku: Sape nok cakap ngan ye (cashier)? Saye pemalu!
Piqah: Saye pun pemalu!
Piah: -_-

After ordering, waiting for the food
Piqah: Patut ambik je Variety Bucket tu sebab cheesy balls tadok
Aku: Doh tukor ah -_-
Piqah: Dakyoh ah Fiey, siyyang ke ye.
Aku: Biar ah, padan muke ye! Dekpun takdok cheesy balls saye!

Kiteorang take away. Because I planned on having a picnic at the beach. A private beach indeed xD Alhamdulillah yesterday didn't even rain, the weather was cute. And we got to see the beautiful view of the sea warlahh. The howling wind blew its way to our faces. Soooooooooooooo syok! Hahaha. But despite that, the windy condition wouldn't allow us to take selfies and pics together because our tudungs tak menjadi or menjetattt xD


Berebut coleslaw dengan Syafiqah, nasib baik cukup. Aherr. Sofiah ordered a breakfast meal yang nama dia Egg Burger apa entah -.-" Five pieces of chicken, the forever saliva-melting cheesy wedges and that was all. We ate slowly, taking in the beautiful time together. Borak-borak. Gosip gosip (ahhhh you know girls). We laughed so hard about Pb and his special someone hahahahahahha xD *I'm not the jealous type lols*

Then after, Syafiqah invited me to learn to drive with her car. No one was around. We got the beach all to ourselves! Although tanah dia tak rata sangat, but I started driving anyway. I was so lembab on that reversing thing that the car went dead for a dozen times -___- That was reversing. I pressed the speeding pedal fully and Syafiqah beside me was like, "Fifiey!!!!!!!" freaking out loud. Hahaha then I released some of the pedal and the speed was normally slow. Fuhhhhh I got panicked myself xD

I circled around the grassy spot of the beach, excitedly. I still couldn't get a hold of the clutch and brake and speeding pedals. I know how they work but to control them at once, it's kinda miserable for me -_- Syafiqah then told me to try stop the car slowly and I did it perfectly well (sort of hahaha). We laughed so hard when I drove dangerously hahaha luckily Syafiqah was a patient teacher (she almost gave up during the reversing I did xD)
Piqah: Haa, sekarang berhenti. Awak pusing depan sana tu skit -
Aku: *berhenti terus tepi tong sampah*
Piqah: Dakyoh ah berhenti tepi tong sampah. Dakpe ah. Okay doh tu.
Aku: Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy! *got out of the car with relief*
Lepas tu it was Piah's turn to learn. She started with reversing the car three times and it worked twice. The moment she started to reverse for the fourth time, a van full of Indians reached the beach. We got our things onto the car and rushed away from the beach. Paranoid gila rasa masa tu xD

We planned on searching for Auni's house but she didn't pick the phone and she was away (pergi kem). So, we destined ourselves to Kakti's curb (she didn't answer our calls either, pastu she claimed that we didn't informed her zzzt). Mula-mula sampai depan rumah Kakti tu, nampak ayah dia luar rumah, malu la jugak. Pastu aku suruh Piqah cover line sikit, pergi straight je and we hid our car somewhere nearby while reaching for Kakti via her house phone.

We ate and gossiped (things just got hotter when Kakti's around hahaha). We prayed and then left for the mission to find someone's house. Lollllllllllllll. Once knowing that someone's house, we decided we didn't have anywhere to go -_- Pusing pusing Losong, Paloh and all that, in the end we stopped by at 'Ainul's house yang jauh gila tu xD Makan sate ikannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn bessssstttttttt. Masa nak balik tu, Piah did the reversing and I pretended that I was sentap kbai xD

Well, that sums yesterday's moments. Kalau keluar dengan Piqah, memang akan balik rumah pukul 6 petang lah jawabnya. A tiring day but fun. I think my parents like it when I hang out with my friends. Tak call langsung -_- I'm like, "Hmmm...sejak habis SPM ni kalau keluar gi mana-mana tak telefon dah. Tak sayang dah saya..." and my friends akan gelak -.-


I'm still reading The Fall of Five. Zzzzzzzzt lambatnya habis baca. Semua cerita best, but I'm the one who keeps on delaying the reading. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

The Day I Finally Feel Old

17.12.13

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Salam. This entry's title is just so overrated, I'm so sorry. I feel old all the time, people! -_- because I am, I'm getting older and older each day and the same goes to everyone, no one grows younger every day -.- But maybe today's event is topping the list of the times I feel this way. Finally I'm going to learn to drive a freaking car (which I thought was easy years back aherr herr).

Yeah I took that law course KPP two weeks ago and was asked to decide a date to take the theory computer test. 'Ainul chose today's date, so did I. We are Buddyz, takkan terpisah lols.

The place to take the test is at Bukit Payung (or Payong, whichever you fancy). There's also another one in Kuala Terengganu area, but I preferred Bukit Payung because it's closer to my house. Soooooo, I went there this morning, before eight, wearing baju kurung and all, SANDALS. I almost forgot to bring my IC, until I'd decided to ask Ummi, "Ummi, kena bawak IC tak?" and she was like, "Of course lah!!!" She was freaking a bit hahaha. Then I ran back into the house and got my IC -.-

Upon arriving at the place, there were a dozen of people already, I guess. At the registration counter, I gave my IC to the officer, and he asked, "Pakai kasut tak?" and I was "Takkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! Tak ingat!" and that was that. Luckily Ummi was still around and my parents went back to get my shoes. Aherrherrr. Several painful moments later, Ummi came with my lovely shoes. Thanks Ummi loveyou to the max xD

I waited with 'Ainul. Joked around with her. And I swear we were the only loud voices there -____-" Eksaited la katakan. Haha. 'Ainul went in to take the test first. There were only 10 PCs kot, so first come first serve lah. After a few moments, my name was called. I got PC no 6 (do I have to tell everything here? -_-) and then there was this darat moment where I picked PERMANENT RESIDENT as the category and there was a pop-up window screaming "No Kad Pengenalan tiada dalam rekod!".

A moment of panic.

Then did I have the feeling to glance around and I saw "UNTUK PEMEGANG KAD PENGENALAN MYCARD, SILA PILIH KATEGORI; ORANG AWAM". K. Lepas tu ada pegawai tu masuk, and he was checking other candidates saying "Pilih orang awam ye," and I had a feeling that somewhere on the computer he was working on outside, there was a system with "No Kad Pengenalan tiada dalam rekod", so I managed to click ORANG AWAM as the category before he looked at my monitor. Yay! XD

After 12 minutes of utter silence, I finished answering (despite the time given, 60 minutes). I was at first nervous, afraid that I'd somehow fail the colour blindness test hahahaha. So, I got my results and............


Alhamdulillah! Seriously I studied hard the day before. Okay, not quite true la. The night before. The day before I lenggang-lenggang je, study sambil tidur. Hehehe. I had a headache before going to sleep, because I focused so hard -_- Please note that I hadn't been studying since two weeks ago. I'd stopped studying anything because SPM was over. *grinning* And I'm still not going to study now. Hahahahahaha

I have a dozen books to finish. I had read The Iron Traitor and the ending was quite traitorous -___- Here's the list of the books;

  • The Fall of Five (Pittacus Lore)
  • The House of Hades (Rick Riordan)
  • Allegiant (Veronica Roth)
  • Unspoken (Sarah Rees Brennan)
  • Untold (Sarah Rees Brennan)
  • The Fiery Heart (Richelle Mead)
  • Deception (C.J. Redwine - seriously there's actually a person named after a WINE?! -_-)
  • Angel Fever (L.A. Weatherly)
  • Rapture (Lauren Kate) - I've been delaying to read this book since a year ago xD
  • Raven's Gate (Anthony Horowitz)
  • Evil Star (Anthony Horowitz)
  • Nightrise (Anthony Horowitz)
  • Necropolis (Anthony Horowitz)
  • Oblivion (Anthony Horowitz)

All were newly bought books, either online or at the store itself, excluding the last five (except Oblivion). Those are my nephew's books, I don't have any much money left to buy new ones, so better borrow them from him (oh please pray for him to get 8As in PMR, the results are on this Thursday, thanks!). Currently I'm reading The Fall of Five. I just started reading it after I got back from the computer test today haahha.


At first I thought it was Number Five's point of view, then I saw "SAMUEL". Woohoo! Haven't read about him since The Power of Six! :D

Tootles!

That Phone Call of Smiles and Cute Things

15.12.13

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Salam. My brother called me this evening, he thought he was remembering something to say to me. Well, I wasn't that surprised to hear him ask, "Semalam birthday Afi kan?" hahahahhaa. Yesterday was 14th December whereas my birthday is on 14th January. Don't worry, Amuh, it's not that far-strayed. Hihihi. But I didn't think that was the real reason he called me, there was another cause. My brother, who never expressed anything emotional to me, suddenly had the urge to tell me his feelings today ;^;

Our conversation was like,
Amuh : Afiiiiiiiiiiiii!
Me : yeahhh?
Amuh : Haaaa....semalam birthday Afi kan?
Aku : ....??!!... hei bukanlah!
Amuh : Oh ye ke...
Aku : Semalam 14 Disember. Birthday saye 14 Januari lah!
Amuh : Oh... Malunyeeeeeeeeeeee
-_-

Then I told Ummi about him calling me. Somehow I know he couldn't bother Kakngah to tell anything since she's departing for Palestine tomorrow. And there's only me, because we are the only three in the family that are not married. He was heartbroken since...since well I don't even remember. It has been far too long for anyone to bear, to hope for a miracle. Maybe Allah has another plan for him, for us. I'd hoped for it once, for a while, then I stopped because I couldn't feel that 'feeling' anymore.

Allah has other plans.


Well, that concludes things up pretty badly. I wouldn't consider it badly though, but maybe it's hard enough for my brother and my mom. The ones that hurt the most, them, not me. I'm invincible nowadays, pushing away all the weak feelings that refuse to let me carry on my life IF I let them overwhelm me. I don't feel as much as my bro and my mom have gone through, but I'll never forget. And sigh, huh, there's nothing else that can be done, what done is done okay.

And Amuh, I can assure you that if Allah wills, He will give you a perfect spouse, if not here, in Jannah al Firdausi. For as long as you keep being strong, there's always Allah for you. For us. For everyone. Don't lose up hope. There's no one else that can give you the strength and solace and serenity. Just...just keep strong.

Maybe that's just the way Terengganu people are, Amuh, so you see, all of our brothers married non-Terengganu wonderful ladies. I'll pray for you, my great brother, one day Allah will grant your wishes, give you happiness and you meet your Ainul Mardhiah. I love you more than you know, Amuh, maybe I don't show it that much (because I suck at showing emotions) but I love you and will always love you and be there for you no matter how far I am. (now I feel like I'm expressing my feelings to pb -_-) Family loves family, and you're family by blood, Mumushi. Have no worries, our family won't let you down.

Done. So much cute things. Snorts.

When The Darkness Comes...

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Underneath the echoes
Buried in the shadows
There you were

Drawn into your mystery
I was just beginning
To see your ghost
But you must know

I'll be here waiting
Hoping, praying that
The sky will guide you home
When you're feeling lost I'll leave my love
Hidden in the sun
For when the darkness comes

Now the door is open
The world I knew is broken
There's no return
Now my heart is not scared
Just knowing that you're out there
Watching me
So believe

I'll be here waiting
Hoping, praying that
The sky will guide you home
When you're feeling lost I'll leave my love
Hidden in the sun
For when the darkness comes

Oh oh oh
For when the darkness comes

Be here waiting
Hoping, praying that
The sky will guide you home
When you're feeling lost I'll leave my love
Hidden in the sun
For when the darkness comes

Hidden in the sun
For when the darkness comes

― When The Darkness Comes by Colbie Caillat

I think I'm a fan of slow steady songs. And this song, this very song ---- it's just so...describing my feelings and my book world right now.

Favourite Cartoons During my Childhood -_-

13.12.13

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.

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Hari ini sebab I have no recent events to update about, so I'm posting on something I think might be nostalgic to me aherrherr. During my younger days (I'm still young but you know I'm talking 'bout those times when I was a little kiddo), I remember Walid started to install Astro when I was seven, and Akademi Fantasia 1 was famous at the time, so I loved watching it despite Walid's warning that I shouldn't watch it :D So back then I was a good deceiver, I only bukak Akademi Fantasia when Walid wasn't around :3

Masa tu aku minat Khai wakakakakakaka, but oh well he got second place, I still liked him :P

But Akademi Fantasia wasn't my prior love, I was SEVEN, of course my passion was cartoons. And it was good to have Walid subscribing the Cartoon Network, Disney, Nickelodeon channels. Sooooooo, I constantly watched Powerpuff Girls and Totally Spies because they rocked so much. Mostly because they were cute girls and awesome ladies, beside that superhero things they did.

<3

The Professor was their Dad, who accidentally created them using nice things bla blabla and boom Chemical X! Lol. I loved how the Professor always took great care of them, he was funny all the time, my favourite was when he dated their teacher (I don't remember her name haha). It would be perfect if the teacher became their Mom. She was cute, by the way.

Okay, now I'm going to tell you the obvious lollllllll I really liked Blossom so much because she was all-pink and her hair was super-long. Although those three, Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup had the same faces, but I really adored Blossom. She was a brainy, the brightest amongst her sisters and most of all she loved reading. Besides being the leader and the eldest, her attitude was in balance. We all know that Bubbles was the soft and spoiled baby whilst Buttercup was the brooding type.

But they were all so sweet, especially Bubbles. I couldn't make myself to favour Bubbles -_- BECAUSE I FREAKING LIKED BLOSSOM, SHE WAS IN PINK I SAID!

Blossom

There you go, my favourite girl - Blossom! She was also very witty. There were times when I didn't agree with her decisions (since she was the leader, she'd be the one to decide). With her smart brain, she thought she knew it all. Well, not all solutions come straight from books, Blossom. You need to hear others' opinions as well. That's a mandatory for being a leader, decisions are made with everyone's agreements.

Blossom sometimes could be very annoying, especially to Bubbles (but Buttercup annoyed Bubbles even more) but she was the caring type. Hmmm aku rasa aku suka si Blossom ni because she was a lot like me.

lLove her.

Sweet Bubbles was forever sweet. She loved everything, cared for anyone. She also was the most spoiled girl by Professor, when at nights she slept with that octopus of hers and needed some light because she was afraid that some fey would get into their rooms in the dark lolololololol

And Buttercup...well, let's say she was my least favourite. She despised everything, like everything in this world was shutting her off. Everyone pissed her off, especially Bubbles. Glad there was Blossom to ease things up with this youngest of the three. Really, Blossom was the most rational of the three, and she was always the one to stop Buttercup from harassing Bubbles. Buttercup wasn't always brooding, sometimes she could be very protective (she was all the time, actually) and cared for Bubbles, Blossom and Professor more than anything.

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Their bond was unbreakable <3

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They had too many enemies such as Mojojojo, that red devil, Green gang ke apa entah, Amoeba eww eww tu, and a bunch more. Tapi yang paling aku benci and menyampah, ialah Princess. Yea yea yea, she was the princess and all that and her father gave her everything tapi tak perlulah nampak kurang kasih sayang sangat hahaha. Sometimes tu kesian jugak dengan Princess ni, but most of the time I was pissed off with her -_-

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I like this version of them.
I still wished that they'd date the Ruff boys instead of beating them down aherrherr. Ohhh lepas tu dalam dua tiga tahun lepas there was this show called Powerpuff Girls Z, from Japan. I liked that one, too, they were awesome and pretty, but I guess there was too much dramas going on so I didn't really watched it. Their gadgets (in Powerpuff Girls Z) were cool, anyway!

That was years ago, I think I might have watched all the episodes of PPG because they kept repeating the same episodes on Cartoon Network and everywhere else. I don't remember/don't know since when the show stopped being on Cartoon Network, but I dread the day they made the show stop T_T Perhaps they ran out of new episodes, so they didn't put PPG on TV anymore, huuuu. Luckily today we have Finn & Jake (I seriously like this show, like, big time!).

Sekarang, jarang je dapat tengok PPG :'(((

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Almost a similar style/concept with The Powerpuff Girls, here's another show I kept on watching throughout my growing up process, Totally Spies. Three girls (with different looks) and that WHOOP (ohhhh the super-fabulous-stylous gadgetssssss) with their annoying boss, Jerry xD

At first I wanted to like Clover because she was in red (wellllllllll it was the only colour close to pink xD) but her hairstyle was so hideous I hated it -______- BESIDES, SHE'S BLONDE! (oh maybe that's why I couldn't favour Bubbles too lolololol) And then there was Sam, but she was greeeeeeeeeeeen not that I didn't like green but but but but I'm so forever-obsessed with pink pink pink! But there was another thing, Sam's hair was the longest (same as Blossom), so she became my chosen spy!

(and plus she was sort of like Blossom, the reader type, smart and all that)

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Alex? Well, she was out of the question. I wouldn't even look at her, never considered her to be my fav. Hahahahaha I wasn't racist (or maybe I was), because she was tanner than Clover and Sam. Her hair was the shortest (though it was black, I like black-haired people). Alex was the straight girl type. Bodoh bodoh alang gitu, and that was what that made her cute.

As time went on, I started to despise Clover because she was so girly and suka sangat berfesyen. She had crushes on most cute boys at Beverly Hills High School and that was that -_- She was flirty and all. Well, it was that she dated David (he was Sam's!!!) that I disliked. So whatttttttt David was the one for Sam and Sam suited him perfectly <3 (now I'm being emotional xD)

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This is Clover -_-

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And this is David and Sam <3

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See? Told ya Clover wasn't my type x)

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And........this is Mandy. Okay, I admit it, she was the one with the most irritating attitude, and with Clover right after her. She was always rivaling with Clover whatsoevaaaa, mostly sebab beauty and fashion and all that kaaan. Muka jahat gila doe, si Mandy ni -_- That mole? Priceless. Only the devil had it, and it was her. Hahahahaha. Aku teringat, ada satu episod ni, yang Mandy became a spy, too, and she sort of ruined everything kan? -_-

Well, I haven't seen Totally Spies and PPG in a while, until recently Nickelodeon decided to replay Totally Spies and I was watching it this evening (and that, ladies and gentlemen, is the reason I post this :3). I wish there are more cartoons like these two. Nowadays, I only watch Adventure Time. Ehhhh waittttt, maybe I only fancy superhero stories, eh?

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My Life After SPM

12.12.13

Assalamualaikum anda!

It feels really weird these days, after SPM. Well, that has passed loooooooong ago (yea right it has been just only a week -_-)

Homework

Yeahhh the abnormal part comes when my Ummi doesn't even nag anymore; 'bout me studying. No more

"Fiiiiii studyyyyy ke studoooo"
"Adikkkk study dok lagi"
"Fiiii wat gapo tuh? Study keeee"

and some other things on studying

and also, "Banyok teh beli buku! Buku belajar ado dok? Tadok?!"

Or Kakak would be like

"Ni apa beli buku cerita banyak sangat! Buku study takdok pun!"
"Study lah Fiey ehhh jangan internet sajaaaa"
"Awak dah study PSI ke belom?!"

But now...

Takde pun orang bising aku nak buat pabenda. Beli buku banyak banyak pun slamber dek je -_- That other day when I just got back from KL, with all the books (there are 10 new books to be exact) scattered all around the floor of my room, my Kakak got into my room. I saw her face, with all the books kan. Then,

"Ni ke buku yang beli haritu?"

Aku "Ha'ahh.."

She didn't hover (or blabber) around, takde kata-kata sinis atau bebelan lagi. In fact she left the room with a smile. And with thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat, I felt not in place anymore. Hahahaha that's what you'll feel when SPM's over. Nobody will stop you from doing anything you like, not anymore. No one will nag at you to go study and leave all the novels behind (plus the laptop and internet).

Really, it feels weird. Of course laaaa kan, I'm still not used to it. For 13 years I was in school, had to score in every exams, studied like my life depended on it with people around me pushing me to be the best student, but now.......nothing at all. For three freaking months, I guess. Hahahaha. I almost can feel my life would be dim for a while, without those classes and friends and school conflicts. Aherrherr

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Anyway besides that bizarre feeling, I'm also at peace. Ngahahahhaa -_- I can read as much books as I want, wherever whenever whatever yepppp. Also I can edit my blog more seriously, now that I'm going to turn 18 in one month and a day, so this blog needs some maturity touch to it :> So goodbye cute-thingys and ahoyyy new worldddd, the world of school ending, teehee!

I had taken KPP class (some sort of ceramah on undang-undang jalan raya). It's a must in order to take any vehicle's license, before taking the computer test. Mine is on this Tuesday, insyaAllah if the system is alright and all -_- Soooooo for the mean time, I still need people to fetch and send me here and there, such as my Dad or my sister or brother, or... Piqah. Ehekkkks. Tu pun kalau nak keluar gi jalan-jalan with friends jer. InsyaAllah nanti we're convoying to Wani's house for her sister's wedding :D

  • Read books (novels, not buku pelajaran k)
  • Update blogs (or do some weird stuffs blogger do, like 10000-day challenge or something)
  • Take car's license (just car, Walid doesn't allow any of his daughters to TOUCH the motorcycle)
  • Some business with 'Ainul, Piqah, Auni, Alya, Kakti (Kakti will be the promoter hahaha)
  • Swimming classes (I think it's on, I'm going with Auni insyaAllah)
  • Drawing classes (I don't think it's on -.- because Walid wants me to go to a "hafiz" school)
  • Go to "Hafiz" school (I'll discuss with Auni again :3)
  • Go to KL (again and again)
  • Record TV programmes and watch'em later (IDK why but Walid just installed AstroBeyond that can record blablabla tu xD)

Right now, only the first and second and third and the last ones are on. Lewlz. I actually have plans with Auni but she's currently not in Terengganu until 20th December so what else can I do but wait uhuks. For now, I'm finishing my 12 novels because I've been waiting for this moment since forever! And! My bookshelf...it cannot hold anymore additional books arrrrrrrrr so I am thinking of the place to put these new shiny novels once I finished reading them. Usually if I ran out of idea, I'd take all the non-English books (read: Malay books) out of the room and place them in the mini-library, hehehehehe and there will only be English books in my room. I don't like my English novels being away from me, they have to stay in my room, just with me -_-

Kakngah once said, "Nanti adik masuk U, Kakngah bolehlah jual buku-buku ni," and I was like, "No wayyyyyyyy! I'll bring them all with me! To Ireland!" Sounds like me, eh? Hehehe

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Birthday Event - Nur Athirah!

11.12.13

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.


Selamat Hari Jadi yang ke-17 kepada sahabat baik yang comell momell, Kakti a.k.a Nur Athirah! Orang lain dah nak masuk umur 18 tahun, dia baru masuk 17 tskkkk sedeyyyy bangettt! Hahaha. Actually her birthday was on 9th December but we went to celebrate it a day later since I was in KL that 9th December morning. Already made plans with Syafiqah and 'Ainul days earlier, and no, it wasn't a surprise birthday celebration. Aku dah bagitahu Kakti awal-awal. Just in case if she wasn't around (or her parents wouldn't let her go out), takkan aku, Piqah and Ainul keluar nak sambut birthday Kakti tapi Kakti takde? Jangan buat lawak tak kelakar kat sini xD

Sooooooooooooooo, I SMSed Piqah, asking her if she would drive us all to Pizza Hut Giant (where else? xD). The original plan was to gather at my house (Piqah and Ainul) at 9am or so, then go fetch Kakti at her house, but SOMEONE woke up late 'cause she said she couldn't sleep until 4am in the morning, so I had to ask Piqah drive all the way to Kampung Rawai. Nasib baik aku ingat lagi jalan rumah 'Ainul, kalau tak, sejam pulak sesatnya! xD

Piqah arrived at around 9am lah. 'Ainul texted me the night before she would be at my house around that time, too but it was nearly 9.50am and she hadn't showed up. Aku apa lagi, telepon lah dia. No answer, so tunggulah lagi. After a while someone called me... Hahhaa with cute I'm-just-awake-from-sleep voice.

Aku: Helo?
'Ainul: ...
Aku: Heloooooooooo
'Ainul: Ho, Fiey...
Aku: Waiii?
'Ainul: Saye dok gi ah kot. Saye baru bangun..
Aku: Lolllllllllllllll k takpe ah awok siap-siap, saye gi ambik awok kat rumoh ngan Piqah k!
'Ainul: Takyoh ah, nyusoh jer...
Aku: Ahhh biar ah! Gi siap! Bai!

Hahahaha there goes my wicked self xD And so we went to pick 'Ainul up, at 11.00am baru sampai rumah Kakti. After that, swooosh! Off to Giant. It was raining, not cats and dogs, but it rained continuously all day. Piqah and Kakti stayed in the car to find a parking spot, 'Ainul and I went to get a cake and maggi ('Ainul la kalau pelik-pelik camni xD). And then we got a Black Forest cake. Dan aku rasa macam pernah jumpa baker tu somewhere, macam cashier dekat Secret Recipe. Ainul buat lawak suruh tanya, "Bang, abang pernah kerja kat Secret Recipe tak?" dan abang cashier tu gelabah awkward aku tak paham kenapa -_-

(dan ada orang letak Maggi dekat rak roti sebab dia malas letak balik dekat rak Maggi)

Then we thought about our plan to buy Kakti a rabbit bear as a present. And yayyyyyyyy ada terjual rabbit comel berdekatan! So I went with Ainul to get it (Ainul did all the talking because I am a shy girl hahaha) so that rabbit with Kakti in the first pic up there, is the one we bought for Kakti! :D


We ate and celebrated and joked with our son's missing albino buffalo still missing (hoi what are you talking) K ngarowt! We ordered the new pizza-whatever-the-name-is, Olio Prawn Spaghetti. That was all. YES, tu je. Biasa kalau keluar empat orang, mesti order makan untuk 16 orang -_- We didn't have that much bucks soooo yeahhhh needed to save for petrol pulak (eh?) hihihi. Lepas makan, someone ajak pergi pantai, with the rain and all kan. Piqah ikotkan ajer, but we stayed in the car in front of the sea -.-

Since it was raining and we couldn't get out of the car, we took self-pics.


Lepas dah puas buat hal kat pantai -__- kiteorang pergi rumah Didi my soulmateeeeeeeeeee <3 just to say "Hi!". Didi wouldn't let us come because she had flu, but I insisted anyway hahaha. But we really did go and say "Hi!" with her twin brothers looking bemused with the situation xD

Then, Kakti nak pergi rumah Haslyna. OK malas nak cerita sebab kiteorang sesat jauh gila dari rumah dia sebab Haslyna tak reti bagi direction, fail terusssssss! xD She didn't even tell the obvious landmarks, instead she gave away the name of HOTLINK store situated 2km or so after her house and KEDAI SATE ORI 1km before zzzzzt For one freaking hour we tirelessly looked for her house and when we were on the verge of giving up, I FOUND THE HOTLINK store pffft -_-

So kiteorang singgah rumah Haslyna lama jugak. Solat Zohor sekali. And it was Haslyna's birthday, 10th December, soooo we celebrated her birthday, too. The Black Forest cake we bought hadn't been eaten because we were too full ourselves after Pizza Hut, so we dug in at Haslyna's house lepas solat apa semua. Took some pictures (thanks to adik Haslyna a.k.a kembar Haslyna sebab muka sama -_-)


The birthday girlssssss


Kakti anggun (aaaaaa serious Ti awok comel sangat masa ni macam muka Pb sikit hahaha)


Black Forest cake. Aku tak pernah makan. And I never knew what cakes really taste like, especially the ones that aren't from Secret Recipe sebab aku rasa macam sama je. Sooooooo I didn't know what this cake tasted like. One thing for sure, I didn't eat the cherry because I don't like fruits mixed with sweet-desert things (and I don't really like cherry lol)


'Ainul being the motherly girl she is, hehehehehe. Ehhh waitt where's my Bondaaaaaa <3


The only non-BPDS in the pic is me... :')))))))


The photographers. Kononla. 'Ainul sampai ke sudah tak reti guna and then I said, "Heh heh bak sini, awak tu bukan cyberrrr. Cyberrr je pandai buat!" hahahaha ahhh k one day I'm gonna have my own DSLR but in the mean time I'm OK with my pink digital camerawrrr


Final pic together. Happy birthday, both Hasle and Kakti! :D

Sakan gila pergi jalan. Hehehe. A lot thanks to our one and only chauffeur, Syafiqah my loveeeeely Bondaaaaa :3 And to 'Ainul for agreeing to celebrate this and go on with the plansssss I love you so muchhhhh muahmuahmuah arrrrr it was such a dread to have no Alya around if she was, it would be super-duper-awesome. And also to Kaktiiiiiiiii, happy birthday budak comel manja motmot! Make sure anak Kak Na lahir 14th January ehhhhh xD

Love you, Motmot! Be always a Motmot, never changeeee! Hahaha :3