Showing posts from March, 2014

I'm such a heart breaker


Have you ever hurt somebody, like, really deep?

I think I have.

And I don't know if I should regret it or not

I mean, one day, you were okay and had heart-to-heart conversations, and then one day you decided to be an asshole so you stopped talking, after that you become good again and start having awkward conversations with them, not caring what they feel at all

I'm the worst human being ever right now.

NOW do I feel bad. But what of the feelings, the hearts that are broken

I don't know

I can't mend those hearts
I don't know how

Maybe one day a person would do the same to me and I'd finally understand. Because right now I'm so clueless. I don't mean to break any hearts, to smash them to pieces.

The distance helps, so, it's okay. I don't have to see his face.


And then 'Ainul was asking, "Fifiey be honest who do you like, Pb or Bp?" and I didn't have to finish the qu…

Dilema Wanita, uhukssssss


SPM sudah, result pun dah dapat. Sekarang ni, yang duk berlegar kat fikiran ni, apa benda course la aku nak ambik? Dulu nampak macam senang je nak decide.

It was ALWAYS medicine.
My dream was ALWAYS to be a doctor.
Ireland was my destination to pursue medicine. (I still want to go there huwaaaaaa)

Baru-baru ni aku tengok biasiswa, and ada satu biasiswa tu, yang Bank Negara kot, courses yang ditawarkan mostly based on Maths. And then there was this weird course, Actuarial Science. First time jumpa kot, so please don't judge me, okayyyy! -_-

I did a little research on the course, and asked around (actually I only asked my BFF counselor, Cikgu Rabiah lolololol). Then the next day I went back to my hometown, and my relatives were like, "No, don't take medicine blablabla." One of my aunties suggested that I take Actuarial Science and that was when I got excited x)

And then I was chatting with my classmates of 5 Muslim 2013 on WhatsApp. There were only Sara…

My SPM result - 0913

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah.


I hoped for straight As, tapi inilah rezeki yang Allah bagi. Alhamdulillah. This is my biggest achievement so far, tak pernah dapat 10A pun sepanjang di form 4 atau form 5. The most As I got before was for trial SPM, 8As. Itu pun A+ hanya ada dua sahaja. And.......

I NEVER GOT PAST C+ for Biology, and tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa I got a solid A for Biology in SPM.

I was hoping for straight As, yes, but if it turned out I didn't, I was aiming for Physics or Syariah Islamiah that would shatter the straight As' dream. DIDN'T EXPECT FOR CHEMISTRY, THOUGH!!!!!

And when I told everyone my result, they were expecting me to answer the B to be Biology, yeah, me, too, me, too -_- But truth be told, I was scared for all the science subjects and subjek agama -_- So, you see, I didn't dare to hope for an A+ for Arabic, but.......... Alhamdulillah. I'm more than delighted.

For the first time in forever.…

Sorry I've been busy


Hey thereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. There has been lack of blogging lately because I'm too busy reading books, going to KL, finishing tasks as a freaking secretary (seriously who appointed me as one IDK la I'm gonna kill'em one day). I had to go to KL, and during my stay in KL, the pengarah of the programme was talking about submitting my task on Wednesday

Freak, stop, I hate you

And then I have a partner, but I'm doing most of the tasks, but oh well. I asked him to do ONE THING and he said he was busy and I was like are you freaking kidding me so you're busy????? YOU'RE BUSY?!?!!!! What a selfish reason and let's call it a stupid one, too

Since I'm not a person who scolds people on the spot, but rather spits on my best friends about why people are acting like germs and jerks and stuffs. I only asked you A FAVOUR ONCE IN A LIFETIME, IN A YEAR. Just a single invitation card (whereas I have to print out, like, 150 cards), and you said NOOO I'M …

Day 5: A book that makes you happy


Day 5: A book that makes me happy

There are so many books I've read, and among those I've shed tears, felt helpless turning each page to the next. I don't know which book that makes me happy, or how in the world the book sends happiness into my system. I have no idea, no idea at all, what to search in terms of making me happy, in a particular book.

Since all I've ever read consist of...betrayals, broken hearts, misjudge people, the "I thought I was human, but I didn't think so" (I'm getting tired of this -_-)

For One More Day by Mitch Albom

It really is an inspiring book. Feeling desperate and losing hope in life, and then your late mother came for you, babying you, showing you the people around who were dying but happy. The book is about a man, in his forties I guess, tried to commit suicide but found himself in his old home with his dead mother.

"Every family is a ghost story . . ."

Mitch Albom mesmerized readers around the …

My little guy


My eldest nephew, Abdillah Riaz Fansuri, uhuks, sedih plak nak bagitau berita ni... Dia dapat masuk sekolah asrama penuh di Setiu, Terengganu. At first I was like, "He's going...he wants to....yes, yes, he'll go," but then I remembered that Setiu and Puchong are quite a distance to each other, meaning he has to leave his family behind (not permanently, yeah, but still)....


Actually, I just can't believe how fast time flies. He's already a man now x'D Going to a boarding school and all, being sixteen T____________T He's a teenager for crying out loud :')))

I hope he'll do well in this new school, he got 7As for PMR with a C for Bahasa Melayu ahaks! Semoga anak sedara aku ni berjaya, study leklok kat sekolah baru. Mak aiii takde harapan la nak ambik EST, Riaz oi, dah masuk sekolah sains... (ke boleh je tambah subjek?!)

All the best to my sixteen-year-old nephew! Alahai, lambat lagi la sepupu dia yang lelaki seorang tu (Muh…

Day 4: Favorite book of your favorite series


Day 4: Favourite book of my favourite series (The Infernal Devices)


The finale of the series.

London 1873 shape-shifter Tessa Gray 16 is engaged to Jem Carstairs 17, dying of addiction to demon drug, all bought up by evil Mortmain. The "clockwork prince" controls an army of automatons to abduct Tess, kill the Shadowhunters, and blackmail Charlotte Branwell, head of London Institute. Will and Tessa hide their love, for love of Jem.
I don't know. There were so much feels in reading this book. The truth about Will, Tess. Jem dying. Jem and Tessa engaged to each other. Will backing off because he never wanted to break Jem or anything. He loved Jem too much to fight for Tessa. It was so good, I cried without willing the tears out.

I guess the books that make me cry are all my favourites T.T

It was when Jem was in his death bed (he didn't die literally but let's just call it his death bed), and everyone was busy searching the cure for …

Day 3: Your Favourite Series


I'm so excited with today's challenge!

Day 3: My favourite series

Of course it goes to.............. The Infernal Devices by Cassandra Clare!

It's a trilogy - Clockwork Angel, Clockwork Prince and Clockwork Princess, in that order.

I can't help but fell helplessly in love with William Herondale because he was too asdfghjkl too much sufferings, too many complications. William Herondale, a tortured soul T___________T

The heroine in the series is Theresa Palmer Gray. She was torn between two boys, Will Herondale and Jem Carstairs and they were undoubtedly both charming and everything for Tessa. And those two boys were Parabatai, a link that bounded them together as brothers in battle/action.

It's a world of Shadowhunters, set long before The Mortal Instruments.

Their love triangle relationship was like if Tessa chose Will, Will and Tessa themselves would be against it because they wouldn't want to hurt Jem (who was already sick to death, but he didn…

Mind you, mind me, mind map!


Hai korang. Hari ni kita cakap melayu je OK? *emoji yang gelak nangis tu* Jap jap

Pernah tak pergi mana-mana lepas tu jumpa stranger yang agak muda-mudi, then tetiba diorang tegur dan address korang dengan panggilan "kak" yang menggambarkan dia tu lagi muda pada kita? Pernah tak? Aku bukan nak marah (okay actually marah la jugak), tapi aku sensitip sikit dengan penggunaan "kak" tu macam perasan muda gila je orang yang panggil aku macam tu

Seriously I hate it. Like, super duper hate. People don't like to be addressed as an old craypot (krepot ke ni wakakaka). The thing is, not everyone in this world is older than you and you're not as young as you think, so please. Frankly, if I found this type of people, I'd likely be happy to ignore them for the rest of my life. Their first impression of calling me "kak" is enough to make me ignore them

Fifiey where's your full stop, don't make grammatical errors here

Kalau yang memang…

Day 2: A book that you’ve read more than 3 times


Hi again, I know I'm late but I'm not guilty. I'd spent a whole day reading and I finished Raven's Gate and am in the middle of Evil Star. Yay me!

Day 2: A book that I've read more than 3 times

The Host by Stephenie Meyer.

I wasn't into aliens and science-fictions before but then there was something tugging at me to search about The Host (maybe a while after I had finished Breaking Dawn) and I ended up reading the plot summary on wiki. Instantly I went around my house to find the book (because I sort of threw the book somewhere after I bought it since I didn't find it interesting).

(I wasn't into aliens and stuffs, but then there was I Am Number Four, so since then...)

It was a relief to get my hands on the book. The first few chapters were undoubtedly boring, but the story developed more and more when Wanda wandered around for Jeb's cave. I instantly hated Jared for his violence towards Wanda, I mean, come on, don't be cruel, Jared…

Giggle wiggle


Recently, I went to Kaklong Ainul's house to hang out with my best beloved frozenated girls, Syafiqah, Sofiah, Kakti, Alya and of course 'Ainul (takkan pergi rumah Kaklong 'Ainul tapi 'Ainul takdak pulak wakaka). Kaklong's a doctor, so that day she went to work for a full day and that left 'Ainul alone :'( So as the best companions in the whole universe to her (okay I'm exaggerating), we decided to go to Kaklong's house, yay!

Of course la memula tak kenal rumah Kaklong kat mana, but in the end we found 'Ainul waiting for us by the roadside -.-" Because we're suckers for directions and dahlah masuk jalan salah. There was a beautiful villa with its name plastered in front of the house, dan masa on the phone with 'Ainul, asyik duk tanya, "Vila Desa tahu?" of course she was clueless sebab villa tu kat jalan lain. Kekeke

And it didn't help that these kids kept shouting and screaming, "Ainul!", &quo…

Day 1: Best book you read last year


Beep beep!
Day 1: Best book I read last year

So, let's see... How many books had I read last year (and the year before)? I lost count -_- And I don't usually note down the date I start and finish a book. Goodreads has been helping me keeping track of my reading progress, but I just start using it this year.

Uh okay, I'm gonna go with The Indigo Spell by Richelle Mead. It's the third book in the Bloodlines series. A little bit about Bloodlines - it centers on Sydney Sage's life, as an Alchemist, a witch and a rebel. You may not know her, but she was present in the Vampire Academy series where she helped Rose or something (I don't remember).

Bloodlines series also tells a lot about Adrian Ivashkov, the most appropriate love interest for Rose Hathaway, OBVIOUSLY (please note that I hate Dimitri Belikov so shut up), but Rose turned Adrian down for Belikov. Adrian had to bear the outcome after that, being heartbroken and all, which was so annoying. St…

30-day book challenge!

Since today is March 1st in the year 2014, I've decided to make a 30-Day Book Challenge (I wanted to make this month-challenge since last month but it was in the middle of February, so yeaaah). Thank God March has 31 days, lol!

And after looking at Farah's 30-day challenge, I remembered that today is March 1st. So, happy birthday Kakak :-*

Day 01 - Best book you read last year
Day 02 - A book that you’ve read more than 3 times
Day 03 - Your favorite series
Day 04 - Favorite book of your favorite series
Day 05 - A book that makes you happy
Day 06 - A book that makes you sad
Day 07 - Most underrated book
Day 08 - Most overrated book
Day 09 - A book you thought you wouldn’t like but ended up loving
Day 10 - Favorite classic book
Day 11 - A book you hated
Day 12 - A book you used to love but don’t anymore
Day 13 - Your favorite writer
Day 14 - Favorite book of your favorite writer
Day 15 - Favorite male character
Day 16 - Favorite female character
Day 17 - Favorite quot…