Fasilitator & Universiti Malaya.

21.8.15

Assalamualaikum.

Previous post has been about UPU result, so is this one. Hewhewhew.


Around two months ago, I had been selected as one of the FPs (Fasilitator Pelajar) for PASUM orientation week (2015/16's batch), MSKP. From there on, I got another huge big family, which are the FPs themselves. At first I was greeted with the sights of many unfamiliar faces. Most of them, I had never set eyes on during PASUM. Whew.

Being one of the FPs brought out the inner me. I become braver and more confident of myself. They, all of them, thought me that. They have been so warm and lovely and friendly.

My bureau - AKSI

We still plan hangouts after MSKP ended, and our WhatsApp group is always alive. Though I have no idea what topics are they discussing each time. *emoji gelak nanges* During Ramadhan, they managed an iftor at KUAZ, and almost half of us attended. The absent FPs include me, since I live faraway in Terengganu T_________T I was so devastatingly heartbroken at the time that I couldn't go because I had promised them T^T

Moving on, they also went for vacation in Port Dickson, which, of course, I was absent as well, since I had to carry my duty as a substitute teacher :(

The thing is, these guys mean so much to me. If I hadn't meet them, my life would be less delightful. They teach me things, and they are not mean, we always support each other no matter what the consequences are, visit each other (for those who live in KL Selangor Perak somewhere there lah, Terengganu Kelantan excluded huhuhu) and then they'd update everything in our WhatsApp group.


It's rare to find this kind of attachment towards a group of people, from all over Malaysia. All of us live in different states and yet we still connect. We'd go from making jokes and puns to discussing about the world's conspiracy, which is quite unique.

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And it somehow saddens me.

Most of them are going to University of Malaya. And it's gonna be ages til I meet them again. I'd hope I'd get into UM, too, alas God has other plans for me.

It breaks my heart that the possibility of me seeing them again is reduced from 94.5% to 0.3%.

And yet I am happy for them. UM is the most prestigious university in Malaysia, so it's good for them. I wish them a happy good life in UM, the place where I left my heart. UM has grown up on me since PASUM and MSKP, so of course, it is kinda bit devastating to not get accepted there. But it's okay. I've passed my mourning stage. Huhu.

All the best to my fellow FPs :) Rindu korang. Ahaks :))))))))))))


Kalau tak ambik Sains, tak berjaya eh?

17.8.15

Assalamualaikum.

Hai, sehat? Alhamdulillah kalau sihat. Hewhewhew kalau tak sihat pun alhamdulillah jugaklah sebab masih lagi diberi peluang untuk bernafas harini. Gi la klinik or hospital kay.

UPU results came out a few days earlier. Ni nak bagitau result aku kat korang ni. Sabar eh. Jap je lagi aku bagitahu. But first and foremost I need you guys to keep in mind that this is like some sort of miracle from Allah, and I am fully redha with my result, so I hope everyone else is, too. Also, Allah has better plans for us, regardless of what we want. When Allah wills it, it WILL happen and there's no other thing to it.


On the 11th of August, my Form 5 students started their Trial SPM examination. While they were busy facing their Sejarah Kertas 3, Piqah, Nad and I were anxiously waiting for the clock to strike 12 noon. I was so nervous that I went to have a walk alone, and ended up in Bilik Kaunseling, to talk to Cikgu Rose (who distracted me with other things, thanks Cikgu hehe). I left Nad alone in the bilik guru, and Piqah was watching over 5 Ar-Razi for their exam.

I told Cikgu Rose I was hoping for UniSZA, course; Medic. And I'd felt that I'd get a place in UKM for Genetics.

I was ready with the the text 'UPU RESULT 960114******' tp 15888 and at 11.59am I opened the text and got my thumb ready to click the send button.

AND THEN THE 11.59AM CHANGED TO 12.00PM!

SEND!

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-_-

There was nothing for the first 15 minutes, but then, UPU replied with a text similar to this;

CONGRATULATIONS! YOU HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED TO DB00 AT UNISZA!

:OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

YAY I GOT MEDIC AT UniSZA!!!!!

YAY!!!!

YAY!!!!!

And then I saw that DB00 code, and I remembered that usually Medic codes start with the letter 'M'. So, uh, Cikgu Rose and I went to check for the codes in one of the scrapbooks, and...

I still got UniSZA of course.

DB00 - Ijazah Sarjana Muda Bahasa Inggeris dengan Komunikasi

And I was like, "Wuuuuuuuuuutttttt?" when did I put this DB00 in the list??!! I didn't tick the [YA] for 'Adakah anda ingin menerima tawaran lain selain pilihan di atas?', so I guess it must be one of options I chose, but the question is...

Pilihan keberapakah kos tersebut?

Maybe 8/9/10/11/12... Of course, if you had to choose for 12 options... Manalah cukup kos Medik sampai 12. Kenalah pilih kos lain juga kan. Huihui. And then BAM! Dia bagi aku pilihan yang ke berapa lah aku letak tu. Dapatlah English for Communication tu. It was a relief, though, since Medic isn't for me, then why not something I'm good at? Aherherher. English has always been my passion since the dawn of time.

Some are supportive, congratulating me and all. But the others, seem a bit too reluctant to accept that I may not be continuing my journey as a student in Medicine.

Hina sangat kot dapat course Arts je. Dapat course Sains baru mulia. AHAKS.

Hence, the title.

I don't know lah. For so long I've been trying to please people around me, going for Science foundation, taking Biology, Chemistry and Physics, studying those subjects like crazy, and me finally getting done with that freaking Physics. I never scored in those subjects. My SPM I got B+ for Chemistry, A for Biology and A- for Physics, and it's not enough. During foundation, Physics was out of the box, I literally gave up on Physics!

Well yeah I did score for Biology and Chemistry in Foundation, but it was too late. OKAY?

*me stressing over my life choices right now*


And when UPU gives you what you're capable of, then you go ahead. Allah has given me that one thing that I'm passionate about, so... CAN EVERYONE PLEASE LET ME GO? Let me follow my dreams and yes, I know, what about my future? What job opportunities are available for me when I graduated from this course? Really? Rezeki Allah bagi, kan?

I have accepted this with a willing heart, so all I'm asking that my dear beloveds do that, too. It's okay to not be a doctor, although it has been my dream for so long. Kat dunia ni tak semua orang kena jadi doktor, huhuhu. Kalau layak, bolehlah jadi. Kalau tak, dapatlah kos lelong. EH? Hahahahahahhaahaha kbye gurau je

Anyways, congrats to everyone! Be grateful for what you got, since there are still others out there who are waiting to get into a university. It's not a shame in not getting Medic, Dentistry, Pharmacy and other hard courses, because you're the one who's going to do all the studying, not everyone else. Screw pessimists! Heh. Do your best and most importantly, do what you're in love with, so that you'll enjoy every moment of your life.

Whith Dune 😌❤

Special thanks to my Asasi English teacher, Miss Su, who has given me a lot of motivational words and encouragement. And she's my inspiration as well, she's one of the reasons I'm interested in taking English hehe. Also, not to forget my cousin, Farha Jalila, who is always supportive of me, and even though she's a little bit of a fixer upper, she gives the best advice. And to everyone else, sorry I let you guys down. Sorry for not getting Medic. I'm a bit sad, too, but Allah has better plans for me, don't you think so? ;)

Bye! :*

Cikgu.

8.8.15

Assalamualaikum. It's been a long time without you my friend....... Lulz.

Search results for school on imgfave

So... What's up? It has been Syawal for a while, and I can't believe my eyes that my days home are going to end soon. Huuuuu... UPU results are coming out this Tuesday. *rips papers apart* *cries*

Heh.

I am now working. HIHIHI! As a substitute teacher at my old secondary school, SHAMS. Teaching Add Maths.......... I know, right? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH I can't believe it myself either. But, there's a but okay? I signed up for this with two other friends, Syafiqah and Nadhirah. So, we are the three teachers teaching in a class, got it? Hewhewhew but we only use my name for the resume and all. The gaji soon we'll divide three. I don't mind the money, as long as I have a job. And I can see Piqah everyday lulzzzzz And Nad, too, but she is sometimes absent (/.\)

I remember my English teacher in Form 5, Teacher Mahshuri, she had cursed me to become a teacher -_- just because I said that I didn't want to be a teacher........ It was true. Erm sort of?

IT WAS TRUE?

WHY IN THE WORLD IT ISN'T "IT IS TRUE"?!

WHY THE PAST TENSE?!

K.

We started off on 26th July. Yeah, it has been 2 weeks already. Our service will expire on the 22nd August. We're replacing Teacher Asmalia for a while because she's undergone a surgery :'( We hope she'll be in the best of health after her 6-week rest.

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I want that pink calculator, too -_-

The first week was a bit hard. We were adapting. Everyday got tired everybody ah. So stressed. Maybe because the body had been trained to lay all-day long in bed in the months before and then suddenly it had to wake up early every day and do some work. Form 4 and 5 classes are not on the ground floor. Form 4 tingkat empat and Form 5 tingkat tiga. Thank God the bilik guru is on the second floor. Tu pun bila sampai tingkat empat tu mengah macam baru lepas merentas desa. Memalukan.

Me when entering 4 Bukhari the first time (after climbing the stairs), "KENAPA KELAS AWAK TINGGI SANGAT NI HA?!" -_______________- *continued to pant*

If we were teaching a much simpler and lighter subject, I'd think the first week would go off smoothly. But Add Maths. Hewhewhew I admit, Add Maths isn't easy (who said it is...), but hey, actually it isn't. After Asasi, I've had a high tolerance towards Add Maths. Sebab lepas belajar Asasi, everything clicked, everything in Add Maths Form 4 and Form 5 makes sense.

But, I didn't think I'd find it quite fun to be teaching these kids. They're like, two or three years younger than us.

AND I KNOW UNDERSTAND HOW TEACHERS FEEL.

The other teachers are all supportive of us, and I'm really glad. We're so new and teaching is so... out of the box. But our teachers (they taught us, too, before) helped us every day. I'm so touched and as every day goes by, my love for the teachers deepens.

FEU Tamtam

The students are okay, too. I love them all. I love all of them. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! It's a bit harder teaching the kelas-kelas depan. Their questions are so advanced... *sighs* And then when we answer their questions, they'd ask the "whys".............. T_T

Basically Nad and Piqah do the teaching (in front of the class) all the time. I do that, too, but not quite often. I like to wander around the class and help the students when they call me for private tutor. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH you know la some kids are embarrassed to admit that they don't understand when the teacher in front ask out loud, so yeah when they make eye-contact with me, I know la where to go and then from there I'd explain to them :))))

Now that I've experienced being a teacher, it makes me feel more grateful towards them. Not that I didn't feel that way before this. It's just...yeah, it teaches me things.

Like, if you don't know anything about something, don't condemn or say bad things. Maybe there's something going on that you don't know. Don't judge and most importantly, be understanding.

Know what?

I searched for "teachers" on weheartit and none of the pictures are positive things said about teachers. Why? You don't value your teachers, hah? They do so much for you, and you don't give a damn.

Oh, and then when your results don't come out good, you blame the teachers?

MY BRAIN CANNOT DIGEST THAT MINDSET, THANK YOU VERY MUCH

And everything that happens at school is the teachers' faults? K.

Parents nowadays (who always point fingers to the teachers) should open their eyes. You yourselves cannot take care of your children THAT well, then you expect the teachers to do it for 1000000 students? Wow. The MENTALity.

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Eh eh eh. Alamak. Lari topik. Hahahahahahaha.

But please, take this seriously. Change, people, change. So that you can change the country. And the nation. And the world. And the prime minister.......................

BYE! HAHAHAHA