Shouldn't

I shouldn't
Be cool
Be calm.

I shouldn't
Pretend
Like I am happy
Like I don't really care.

I shouldn't
Stay silent
Hide the truth,
I shouldn't.

Shouldn't I be honest?
So that this heart doesn't keep bleeding
Whenever their story is being told?

Shouldn't I admit
The feeling
This feeling?
In the hopes that they will get it?

I shouldn't dwell too much on this.

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Shouldn't I have gotten over this already?